(latest update July 30, 2024)

Saraphenia’s player loved this community and everyone in it, always thinking of others. As players, hers was my dear friend and a near constant in my life from 2018 on. As characters, Phenia and Leafi knew each other in passing during 5117, entered an engagement period more or less on a whim in a polyamorous circle during late 5118, grew closer and developed a more serious one-on-one bond over the years leading to their wedding in early 5122, and renewed their vows in 5124 about a month before her player left us.

People think of Leafi and me as vibrant and strong, but our strength isn’t ours alone, nor could it ever have been. Phenia and her player brightened our world, livened our days, spiced up our routine, gushed their joy, celebrated our triumphs, eased our burdens, and reminded us–sometimes with words and sometimes without–what we’re living for at all. We’re blessed that they gave their best attentions and affections to us, but they also reached and touched countless others.

Below are tributes and quotes I’ve collected from the main GS Discord server’s public general channel or that people have sent me with permission to commemorate Phenia and her player, who will be forever remembered, honored, and loved. This list will grow with more tributes to come from people who are still processing and at a loss for words (which I am too); many of the players below have indicated that they’ll have more to say in time. We also have our in-game celebration of life coming on May 24th, at which point I’m likely to include those comments here too.

Even so, rather than wait until it feels like everyone who wanted to say something has, I thought it better to publish this early to help ease us through the grief and update later as we go. I also hope that doing so honors what Phenia’s player would have wanted most for us: loving one another.

We invite everyone to share their favorite story, memory, thoughts, or general impressions of Saraphenia and her player in the comments below, at Phenia’s celebration of life, or by sending word to Leafiara or Julenne in any form: Discord, player mail, in-game thoughts or spoken conversations, and more. (If you leave a comment, please wait some time for it to be approved.)

Whether your words are happy, sad, funny, or bittersweet, she would have considered any story worth sharing if her loved ones considered it worth sharing–and, as the tributes will make abundantly clear, “her loved ones” encompassed everybody, whether she knew you deeply, knew you only in passing, or met you even just once as a newcomer. Her other characters included Alessia, Clarimostica, Ciyuka, Delfina, Felliciana, Naricia, Oleevia, Olisentia, Septuna, Sylthana, Sylvinarre, Tarlonis, Tersheah, Vandaleigh, Wixterwin, and likely others I didn’t even know about.

Lastly, additional tributes can be found linked from Leafi’s wiki page or on Phenia’s Memorial wiki subpage.

Julenne’s player (May 2)

 

(on the RYSK server:)

Saraphenia, Jules loves you. Thank you for everything you have done for me, for RYSK and our Town. You have overcome so much, now you can rest. I will miss you kissing me as I grin at you. You will be forever in our hearts. I love you Phenia.

 

(on  the main server:)

I am forever grateful for the impact Phenia had in my life. I am so proud of all she has accomplished. I am honored she served with us on the RYSK board. I am truly blessed to have called her my friend. She will be deeply missed.

Zeminar’s player (May 2)

 

…She really was such a kind person and a great friend.

Yardie’s player (May 2)

 

She was a sweetheart. The nickname Aelotoi of Love really suited her. That is how I will always describe her. Man, she was really fun to talk to and just kind and caring. I really enjoyed her company, and I am glad to have gotten to know her.

 

Really hurts to hear she’s gone.

Delindra’s player (May 2)

 

She interacted with me a few times when I was just returning as a player and I really appreciated her kindness and help. This is a big loss. I hope those closest to her keep their memories close in comfort.

Stormyrain’s player (May 2)

I’m so sorry to hear this. And it’s a good reminder that this community really can make the difference for people, as a fun and enjoyable place to be regardless of the reality of the world/life. That should be the thread we all share, always.

Lylia’s player (May 2)

 

She was known and loved by so many, and her loss will be deeply felt. What a mark she left, though, not just in one world but many.

Tsalinx’s player (May 2)

 

I’m so sad to hear the news. When I came back in 2017 she was very kind to me and I remember hunting Bonespear with her. I always remembered her kindness when I’d see her around, usually just in passing.

Dendum’s player (May 2)

 

She was fierce.

 

She did many great things, she was a founding member of the thorns and instrumental in getting signatures for the vote, she was an early member of RYSK and instrumental in its incredible popularity and rise to one of the largest organizations in the game.

 

I think though she was always loudest and proudest about her friends and loved ones…. especially you Leafiara.

 

She will be missed.

Kippe’s player (May 2)

 

It was always a delight to speak with Saraphenia. I am so sorry for your loss, specifically, Leafi and our loss as a community. 💜

Kiyna’s player (May 2)

 

That’s… damn. I’m really sorry to hear this. Saraphenia was always a charmer, gushing with energy whatever she did. Not gonna be the same without her… heart goes out to you, Leafi. You and all the many who knew her better than me.

Tayler’s player (May 2)

 

I’m so sorry to hear this, I didn’t know her very well, but she was always so full of energy whether it was noon or 4am, and she was a lot of fun to be around.

Leafiara (as a character, May 2)

 

Saraphenia, Aelotoi of Love,

 

We will miss you, but we will keep your spirit with us always. You touched lives in the Black Hand Trading Co, the Black Thorns, the Claws of the Drake, the Drakes Vanguard, Fenog’s Regulars, House Onoir, Ord an Dragan, the Parliament of Rooks, Twilight Hall, and, of course, your beloved Raise Your Stout Krew in which you were a board member and had an immeasurable impact on its incredible growth in such a short time. I’m probably even underestimating how you touched other groups in which you weren’t a member or that I didn’t know of.

 

Organizations aside, you reached out to even the most unknown people on the streets. You found them in numbers I never understood and elevated them in ways I never matched, but I’m recommitting my efforts to try. My wedding ring will never leave me and, as long as I wear it, I’ll work to honor your legacy. You’re my inspiration to be so much better than I’ve been and to give to the world as you gave to it–by meeting people where they were, which was just how you met me, instead of waiting for them to come to you.

 

I’ll have vastly more to say at your celebration of life and for years to come. I have so many plans and so much to share about the precious time that I’m blessed we had together.

 

For now, thank you, Phenia, my Dragonfly. My greatest source of strength was, is, and will always be your love, passion, and energy. As I wrote in *your* wedding ring, you have my whole heart for my whole life and until eternity. I love you and we will reunite one day.

 

Leafiara Autumnwind, proudly and forever the wife of Saraphenia Autumnwind

Eladarmi’s player (May 3)

 

You are greatly loved and missed. Thank you for being my friend dearest Saraphenia. With Great Munay, Eladarmi

 

[Note: Eladarmi also sent two songs for her, but due to sheer vertical space occupied, I’ve reserved them for the end of this post.]

Jastalyn’s player (May 3)

 

I really got to know Phenia during her wedding to Leafiara. The thing about Phenia that first enthralled me with her was her excitement, and it continued to enthrall me each and every time I experienced it. She was always so animated, she made you forget about anything that might have been bothering you before crossing paths with her that day. I can still feel the elation she shared on her wedding day and many days after when she talked about how her training was going, how when she made the decision to become a Monk, how much she wanted to be Frost Queen, and how she was running for council.

 

It was so endearing each time she related her Mother and Daughter experiences with me. It was an honor to share her milestones with her, seeing them through her eyes. But, the biggest honor was when she called me ‘Mama’. Our lives were busy in so many different ways, but she never failed to keep me updated on the important things. The love that Phenia and Leafiara shared was inspiring and endearing.

 

Her beautiful soul impacted so many lives and will echo through time. May we all aspire to live up to her example of unconditional love.

Pukk’s player (May 3)

 

Saraphenia was my unwavering source of positivity and belief. Whenever I found myself sinking into doubt or was sad and she was there, she lifted me up with her cheerfulness and faith in my actions. She was a beacon to me at times, guiding me through some dark moments with her encouragement. She made a difference in my life, as a player and as Pukk. I will miss her greatly.

Falvicar’s player (May 4)

 

There’s a lot of fun memories – whether it was you [Leafi], her, and the rest of the “gang” going out hunting bandits to her teaching Falvicar the rope trick (I can’t remember the word off hand). She’s always been fun, and a pleasure to have for company. She’ll be missed.

 

[Note: “Rapiao” was the word.]

Saevia’s player (May 5)

 

She wouldn’t want us to give up. Nor would she want us to focus on the negative over the positive. She’d want us to keep on living and not stay stuck in the past or on those who’ve gone on before us.

Emperia (as a character, May 5)

 

Emperia asks, “Was it a favorite memory or story…?”
Emperia says, “I think that for me, it is her showing me kindness when I first arrived.”
Emperia says, “She could have walked past, but chose not to.”
Leafiara says, “That’s so her.”
Emperia says, “It…it really is.”
Emperia says, “I’ve seen her do that with several other people, as well.”

 

[Note: Emperia indicated that she might get a more formal statement together at a later date, but to use the above if not. If she sends more, I’ll update.]

Xess’ player (May 6)

 

I recall meeting her at a table to discuss her change to the so and so of love all while thinking “Well this ones kooky” Haha. Good times.

Saesyra’s player (May 6)

 

I came back to Gemstone this past year, and when Saraphenia learned I was newly returned she generously gave me a pile of silver to ease me back into the game. This was plenty alone, but afterward she took the time to roleplay with a group of us for a while after, hosting us in her home and creating such an inviting atmosphere that I still think of regularly and fondly. She was so generous with her money, time, and with true kindness that I almost couldn’t believe she was real. I’m so happy to have met her, and have tried hard to match her generosity since. Although we hardly crossed paths after, I still think about her kindness regularly and will appreciate it always. All my love.

Omahice‘s player (May 6)

 

I am so sorry … she was so sweet and nice when she tattooed us young ones. Meeting her and you [Leafi] was a bright spot in my early adventure.

Darphin‘s player (May 6)

 

I knew her more in passing, we didnt hang out. but ive seen the effect she had in her willingness to help the community. very few of us havent been touched in someway for sure.

Fehala’s player (May 8)

 

I may be late in reaching out with my contribution to Saraphenia’s memorial, and for that, I am deeply sorry. It was only recently that I realized I also knew her, just as a different character. When I returned to Gemstone last October, I met her as Sylvinarre. She played a kind-hearted, young Aelotoi who was eagerly adopted by the group of friends I was introducing to the game, who Fehala fondly referred to as her ‘fledglings’. In our small Discord chat, she was so helpful, always with a cheerful word to say, or offering other words of encouragement. All of us who had the pleasure of knowing her during that brief period are truly saddened by the loss of her bright presence.

 

She spoke very highly of you [Leafi]. It was evident to all of us how much she treasured your friendship and wisdom. I regret closing our Discord group after many moved on to another game, because I wish I could revisit those messages and share them with you now. She held you in the highest regard and wanted everyone to know how creative, helpful, and knowledgeable you are.

 

Grief can be overwhelming, like a relentless wave that threatens to pull you under. Right now you are navigating a storm, but do not forget the chain of hands extended out from the shore to help guide you home. Saraphenia touched many lives, leaving behind a legacy of kindness and friendship that will always resonate with those of us lucky enough to have known her, even briefly.

 

Sincerely,
Mandy; Fehala’s Muse

 

[a brief followup afterward:]

 

I will miss her exuberant ‘Hiiiiiiiiiii!’ in my head when she would notice I was on. I’m so, so sorry for your loss.

Teddyboy’s player (May 10)

 

I am so deeply heartbroken, she helped me when I returned back in 2021, always had good vibes and very cheerful. We would chat briefly in passing, She showed me how to highlight names, I couldn’t figure out how she would give me a hug a kiss on the cheek and disappear so fast.

 

In real, my dad once said you’re only here to leave memories for the next leave some good ones. ❤️

Rioja (as a character, May 11)

 

Leafi,

 

Condolences and hugs both in spirit and in person. I didn’t have many interactions with Saraphenia, but I do have one small moment to share. I think she was a bard at one time? I was gifted a crown that I could not keep, so I gave it to her as it suited her more than it did me, it was copper with gold leaves interwoven throughout. She was a ginger like you and me (we gingers have to stick together, after all!) A short time later, I bumped into her and found she was still wearing it. If I recall, she was writing little ditties about her kicking butt and singing whilst at it. Or sing one into a lull then kick their butt. Hehe, I don’t know.

 

So while I didn’t have many interactions with her, it’s her spirit of playfulness that sticks out. A world is made bright when there are those that bring a lightness to it. She along with her light will be sorely missed.

 

Yours,

-Rioja

 

[Note: Phenia was indeed a bard at one time. I can’t speak to at what point she might have had red hair, though…]

Evii’s player (May 14)

 

[For her tribute, Evii’s player simply sent in a log of when her character met Phenia, which can now be found here along with half a dozen additional memories from me that her log brought to mind.]

Anonymous character from the Black Thorns (unknown when first shared, but discovered May 15)

 

They called her the Aelotoi of Love

 

But she will always be known to the Black Thorns as the Fierce Wings of Freedom

 

We will miss your voice

 

We will carry it forward

 

Rest now for you have earned it.

Leifa’s player (May 22)

 

To know Saraphenia was to experience a rare and extraordinary form of goodness. She was the epitome of kindness, the personification of grace, and the embodiment of all that is good in Elanthia. From the moment I met her, she had a way of making me feel valued, appreciated, and a part of the story. I saw her do this countless times with other folks in our realm. She had an uncanny ability to see the beauty and potential in everyone she encountered.

 

Her kindness knew no bounds. She treated everyone with respect and compassion. She had a way of brightening even the darkest of moments in Elanthia with a funny joke, an impromptu song, or perhaps announcing something genuinely warm and sweet. Her impact on those who had the privilege of knowing her is profound and lasting. Saraphenia leaves behind a legacy of love, kindness, and generosity that will continue to inspire us for generations to come.

 

Rest in peace, our sweet friend. You will be deeply missed, but not forgotten.

 

Love, Leifa

 

[Leifa’s player additionally sent in a log of when her character encountered Saraphenia on her player’s first day back from a hiatus through most of 2021. It can be found here along with some of my own commentary for perspective.]

Eralice’s player (May 22)

 

[For her tribute, Eralice’s player sent in a miniature tale of when her character met Phenia, which can be found here.]

Svardin (as a character, May 24)

 

Everytime we lose someone as dear to us at Saraphenia, I ponder an elegy I wrote long ago. I think it’s appropriate as to how I feel about her.

 

“The Sum of a Life Full Lived”

 

Our days are numbered, some to many, others to few. During those days, our single thread spins incessantly to weave an insubstantial web that clings precariously and impermanently to the convoluted place we know as our moment in time.

 

Others will look at our wispy effort as it glints precarious in the dimness of our setting sun. They will wonder at its curious twists and changes of pattern. They will ponder its sheer simplicity, utter genius, pure whimsy, unexpected symmetry and profound discord. However, whether our airy cloth was long complete or if something was left undone, they will never comprehend the incredible richness of each consequence that defined the sum of our life full-lived.

 

Indeed, our days are numbered, some to many, others to few. Regardless, the sum of our days is always infinite as our intransigent web touched and changed the fabric of existence. I will not rue that result, but relish its unfathomable significance.

 

I will remember her.

Severine (as a character, May 24)

 

Phenia was a dear friend, but I regret that I didn’t know her better. I always thought there would be more time. Isn’t that one of the great shames in life? It’s so easy to take time for granted. At the renewal of their vows, I whispered to Phenia, “Thank you for loving my friend.” In retrospect, what I meant to say, and what I should have said, was, “I love you for loving my friend,” because I did. It’s a unique and singular joy to watch someone light up in love. And Leafi and Phenia were resplendent.

 

When I think of Saraphenia, I will always picture her gazing at Leafi, calling her “goddess.” I always smiled at that, even felt a little embarrassed to witness what felt like a private term of endearment expressed so publicly. But now, all I feel is awe. At how truly unabashed she was in her love and adoration. How bold, how fearless. And to see my dear friend standing on the pedestal of her affection – it was a gift not only to Leafi, but to everyone who loves her. And I’ll treasure her forever for that.

 

[Though she didn’t know it when saying this, Sev had told Phenia–just in a different way. She wrote notes to Leafi and Phenia for their vow renewal, included alongside some gifts, and the one for Phenia read: “Dear Saraphenia, I love you so much for loving my friend, and for being her person in life. Wishing you two all the happiness in the world. Cheers! Severine”]

Lilanna (as a character, May 24)

 

I have two anecdotes, which I did not prepare for…

 

Like so many others, I am sure… I met Phenia in TSC when she tried to hit on me and take me home. While I don’t fault her lifestyle, it’s not mine, and I did brush her off many times. But the thing is. Knowing she did it to how many others? She still made YOU feel special when you had her attention, she always singled YOU out of the crowd.

 

Not too many months later, I came to RYSK when I was taken into Xess’ family. I was passing through town one day on my way to muster, to have my grandmother induct me that very day. I ran into Phenia in town again, and while she was a little upset, we went to a table and I let her vent a bit…. and I told her where I was headed. Being new to the crowd, she jumps up and says Oh, I’m an Offficer, I’ll induct you right now. And thus her ever helpful nature stole me from Grandma Julenne.

 

These are the memories we keep.

Nordred (May 24)

 

I mostly want to mention a moment I’d just like to remember her smile and her being happy.

 

She had switched back to playing Sara after some others for a time and was wanting her to be a monk instead of a bard. And I happened to have a profession change potion on me I let her have, and she asked how she could repay me and I just told her to cap one day. But she was happy as can be there that she got to make her a monk.

 

And I always did believe she would cap even if she didn’t think so.

 

[She did go on to cap, the commemoration of which can be found here.]

Yardie (as a character, May 24)

 

I met Saraphenia in the Landing, but not in Town Square Central. Instead it was at a Paupers’ Dance. I forget the occasion, but it was the first time I had seen her. We had similar hair, and she seemed so friendly. I did get some hesitation when I was asked about her. But I never listen to people when it comes to talking to folks. We spoke. And she just wanted someone to talk to, someone to enjoy company with, someone to share stories with.

 

As the night continued, we danced. I like dancing, and it’s a party. And so, we just enjoyed the music, enjoyed the night. And, as we were dancing…she…folded her wings around me. I was a complete stranger. Someone she didn’t know, and she showed a level of closeness, a level of enjoying people, enjoying their time and proximity and conversations. I never forgot that. It resonated so much with me that it was something that would be a part of me.

 

The other memory I have was when she and Leafi and Madame Emperia were just talking. Talking about Landing nonsense. Talking about politics. Talking about our motivations. Maaaaaan Phenia was animated. That passion. That fire. That fierce love and caring for people, friends, strangers, it didn’t matter. I’ve only seen characteristics of that in very few people.

 

It’s…it’s easy to lose ourselves in the hustle and bustle, the madness, the fighting, the hunting. But I think, as the four of us chatted, it reminded me of those moments when things calmed. Where we just sat or stood despite invoker visits and conversed, got to know each other, expressed our likes and dislikes, and grew to better understand each other. We lost track of time that day. And with Phenia, it was easy to lose time talking in her office, or in Thrak’s, or wherever. She just wanted that company, and that conversation. She wanted to learn about YOU.

 

I guess my challenge to you all is this: We can honor her by doing the same. Getting to know someone. Helping a stranger. Saying hello to someone you don’t know. Sometimes, saying hi to someone might heal a wounded heart that we don’t know. She will be missed, but…if we can do that…then she’s with us, always.

Luscinia (as a character, May 24)

 

I have not been around the lands much, but one of my most distinctive memories was meeting Saraphenia on the Locksmehr ferry one afternoon. I was only traveling by myself and hadn’t expected to run across anyone. People pass each by on the ferry all the time without really talking. But that time, Saraphenia struck up a conversation with me on the docks. She told me was on her way to a party in Ta’Vaalor, and invited me to come along with her all the way across the mountains. So… I did that day, and she talked with me the whole time, and she introduced some of her friends in RYSK, and I had a great time there in the forest.

 

Anyway, I am not here too often as I said, so I only saw her a few more times after that, but when I heard she passed I knew I had to stop by and share a memory in her honor. I hope we can all sometimes take the time to meet someone new and be kind, like she did.

Chamorr (as a character, May 24)

 

Ya know, before she was RYSKy, or a dragon, or a councilor, she was a Hooligan. I remember talking with her, joking and tomfoolery, waiting fer 8:30 and Drakes to start. That seems like forever. I remember talking her into becoming a Dragon, that’s Ord an Dragan. And I also remember her coming to me, telling me and asking me that she was forming RYSK. I remember when she was sooo excited to be the kidnapper of Aoife in an event we had. She was, as you know, very animated and was really into it. Recently, at the renewal of her vows with Leafi, her love and dedication to her goddess was there for everyone to see. And I loved she said her vows in Aelotian.

 

Our world has gotten a bit smaller, and she will be missed, thank you.

Pukk (as a character, May 24)

 

Saraphenia was always kind and caring. This was her nature and as I can see around me those she moved. She touched many of our lives. I don’t believe my words will do her justice and will fall short, but here I go.

 

Phenia was…is a beacon of light in our lives. Her kindness wasn’t an occasional act but a constant thread woven into the very fabric of her being. Whether it was a warm smile to a stranger or a helping hand to a very miserable rogue in need, she knew how to make people feel valued and loved. That was her innate ability. Her charm.

 

She was a daughter, a sister, a friend and often a confidant. She was the heart that held some of us together. Her kindness will always be remembered in our families, groups and…parliament.

 

I will try to do better at telling those that touch my heart how I feel, as she did. She made a difference in my life.

 

All I can say.

Missandai (May 24)

 

I did not know Phenia as well as some of you. My memories of Phenia come from over six years ago.

 

My sister and I were pretty close to a few of Phenia’s other characters and I remember her as being such a loving, caring, attentive friend and more. She always had a warm hello to everyone. A kind word. I know that I regret not getting to know her again after my return. But I am so touched and emotional knowing this beautiful soul touched so many other lives. I know that they are not here, but Martyle and Ayvain were so sad when they heard that she had passed.

Chandrellia (as a character, May 24)

 

I met Phenia through Leafi. I had only been in Landing a few weeks and Leafi and I became pretty close and in my opinion good friends. Leafi spoke non-stop about Phenia, and how much I would love her. At first I was skeptical. I didn’t trust many, but I trusted Leafi.

 

Then I met Phenia, and oh man. She was full of enthusiasm. And bouncing off the walls, excited and without even knowing my name yet, she hugged me and kissed me. As I play my harp tonight it reminds me of her. The music from the harp pulls magical notes into the air. Phenia was that music, she could pull the magic from all of us and watch it glow.

 

She was fearless when it came to her friends, including going up against Thadston once or twice. I am proud to know her and call her my friend, even when she was dancing on the bars.

Lahanna (as a character, May 24)

 

Funny how she could give out so many kisses and still make each one feel special.

 

[This was a side comment she made at Phenia’s celebration of life, but one I felt was worth preserving.]

Dendum (as a character, May 24)

 

First of all, first memory of Saraphenia was NOT of being hit on. Or of dancing on bars… Or of hugging and kissing…

 

First memory was getting yelled at BY Saraphenia, apparently you are not supposed say mean things about Leafiara with Saraphenia around without being prepared to hear from her about how you are wrong. She was full of enthusiasm and with much enthusiasm informed Dendum he was wrong. But that WAS Saraphenia a fierce protector of her friends. To be sure this first impression was correct, she was someone willing to loudly protect those around her, whether it was one person or a group of people or an entire town of people, She would protect those around her.

 

Saraphenia was known to some as the Aelotoi of Love, but was she not also the Aelotoi of Freedom? The Aelotoi of Devotion? The Aelotoi of the Landing? The Aelotoi of Friendship? Even to the end she was fierce and devoted and loud about her beliefs.

 

In the face of ears that would not listen,

 

She did not grow silent, did not grow cold,

 

In the face of foes that would not budge,

 

She did not despair, did not retreat,

 

In the face of cruelty

 

She did not grow cruel

 

She was as fierce at the last

 

As she was at the start.

 

This was Saraphenia, we were fortunate to be able to know her. We are fortunate to know her still.

Thandrick (as a character, May 24)

 

I didn’t know Phenia long or deeply, but her impact on my return to the realm was profound. I only say “Phenia” because so many here [at her celebration of life] are. I actually called her Saraph in the short time I was graced by her presence. I didn’t know better, and she didn’t correct me.

 

I’ve been around the lands for decades. Since the dark ages, some might say. Over these years the substance of so many relationships, and accomplishments, have fizzled. My most recent return was after 15 years away. In these new lands everything was intimidating. So many folks were..so confident, busy, and bothered.

 

I soon found the RYSK Muster. While this proved to be a fine and amiable group of people, after attending a few, I quickly learned that I had little to contribute and that I was also of little interest to those in attendance. Until one time when Saraphenia was there: she not only acknowledged me…but spoke to me directly with questions and an expression of interest.

 

Turns out she was also running for Wehnimer’s Landing Town Council, and needed consent to pin a campaign button on me. I left that Muster wearing this button, but she didn’t disappear. She kept checking in on me over days and weeks. She asked, genuinely, “how are things going” and “what do you need?'”

 

When I was a corpse in town central, when passing through, she would also roll my dead body, multiple times. Sometimes licked me too. Though that was usually Julenne’s job, I learned. But she always saw me and made me feel like me being here meant something to someone.

 

So I wore her button. Although I didn’t vote, and still don’t know how any of that works, I felt proud to have her name as a fixture of my outfit for many weeks of my time finding my way back into the lands. Her legacy to me is one of if I ever see, hear, or notice someone in a space that might not have been invited to participate, I will make an effort to include them. And I am grateful to have been seen, and included.

 

Long live Saraphenia!

Eralice (May 24)

 

My experiences with Sara go back far beyond this little body. Many, many years ago I knew her. I didn’t remember her right away, but it didn’t take too long. When I returned after so long away I was totally lost. Some of you may have read that story Leafi put out for everyone. [The tribute linked up above on this page.]

 

Well now I want to talk about Saraphenia as a whole, how I knew her, how I met her once again, how she loved one of the dearest people in the Lands to me. Phenia was one of the best people in or out of the Lands that I have ever met. Her kindness, her encouragement for everyone, her LOVE, her great, great love of people.

 

I have always wanted to be more like Phenia. To be more accepting, to avoid cliques and stand apart groups. She didn’t care what race you were, how fast you trained or even if you ever trained. Phenia always loved whomever she met. And if she got a roll in the hay along with it, more fun tonight. But if she didn’t. . .she didn’t love you any less. And she loved Leafi with all her heart.

 

I knew Leafi back in those long gone days as well, and she was a dear friend. In the small intermittent times I was able to return we grew even closer. The Phenia I knew in the old day was. . .well, there’s no other way to put it, she was wild! And when I returned and she and Leafi were married, it sort of blew my mind. Leafi was the quiet type the last time I had been around. She rarely talked to anyone, not out of meanness, she was just very shy. And to find out that she and Phenia were married, it was a shock indeed. Then I saw them together. I have never seen someone love so hard and deep as Phenia loved Leafi. And then I could breathe a sigh of relief.

 

I want to say, do your best to be like Phenia. I’ve met a lot of people since my return that. . . made me question coming back. But what I want to say to each and every one of you is, I love you. Maybe not as well as Phenia did, but I do. I love these Lands, I love the people in them. Some more than others. But I wish for each of you to do the same. Stop putting up walls. Stop putting expectations on people. And just love them. And show that you love them. That you care who they are and what’s going on with them.

 

That’s all I wanted to say.

Littlemelody (as a character, May 24)

 

I wanted to share soothing words about lovers’ last moments, like what they would say to each other.

 

I know you’re still listening so I still tell you what’s in my heart, sometimes words are not needed for those that are thousands of miles apart, it’s simply my heart speaking to yours, of this I’ll never doubt. I keep believing in the dreams I’m dreamin because the truth is I didn’t expect to fall in love. Even if I lose you, it was worth the fall, better than to not have loved at all.

Saevia’s player (May 24)

While many here have stories about Saraphenia in her various incarnations on that one character…my anecdote is a bit different. I didn’t know Saraphenia personally in character, but I did know Septuna, one of her earlier/other characters, however long ago it was. I WANT to say it was close to a decade ago…if not more, but I’ve since lost track of how long. I still remember the unexpected random kindness that led to her becoming Saevia’s adoptive mother, and that aspect of the person has never left my mind, though we more or less parted ways when she started playing other characters more…we never lost contact outside of GS. To this day, I am, and dare I say it, we are all better people for knowing her. For having her touch our lives in various ways. I strongly suspect she would be both proud and more than happy to see such a gathering in her memory.

Aoife (as a character, May 24)

 

I’ve known Saraphenia for a long time…but haven’t had the pleasure of as much time with her as many of you have. In fact, perhaps the most time we ever spent together was the night she was my guard when I was kidnapped! I do wish I could remember more clearly what we talked about that evening, but Bear says I told him we talked a lot.

 

The witches of Moonstone Abbey have a saying…Every ending is a new beginning. And so, while Phenia is now stardust, and her time with us is finished, I like to think of her starting over again beyond the hills. More adventures, more of the unknown, more souls to learn about and share time with. In her glory!

 

And for us left behind, might it be the beginning that many of you have spoken of tonight: Of a world in which we all take the time to be kind to those around us, to share heartaches and joys, good times and bad. My thanks to Saraphenia for being the person she was and to all of you for recognizing that and moving it forward into the world. May this ending truly be a new beginning.

 

Blessed be.

Julenne (as a character, May 24)

 

I met Phenia similar to most.. I healed her and she took me to her place. She started hitting on me, but I told her I do not share me or Citan. She accepted and we sat for a long time. When I met her, I felt like we’d been friends forever already. Soon she became one of my best friends and the first Officer underneath Citan and I to join RYSK.

 

She was not only my best friend, she was my right hand person. My stylist… Tonight I went to venture an outfit she choose for me once. And I couldn’t get it. I broke down and cried. Lucky enough I had this cloak with everything in it from Leafi and Phenia’s renewal. She chose this outfit. It now seems fit that the last outfit she chose for me, is the one I wore tonight.

 

I have so many crazy stories I could share. One of my favorite memories is Lahanna, Phenia and I on my sloop. Three bad arse chicks defeating pirates. We laughed so hard. We were such a hoot to see.

 

I will be forever grateful of all the great things Phenia has added to my life and in the other realm. I miss her kissing me and I grin. I will always bring her with me, wherever I may go. She is my ride or die buddy and we died a lot together. On behalf of RYSK, I am so thankful ye all are here to celebrate her life. Thank you for showing us, Leafi and Phenia watching down, how much she mattered.

Aerocus (as a character, May 24)

 

I didn’t know Sara well, but just listening to everyone speak, it’s good to know that there are people who capture the essence of what the land could and ought to be. I wish I could have know her better but if nothing else she’s given me an example of what to strive for. My sincere condolences to all of you, but I can tell her memory will live on through the impact the has had on everyone here. …

Anstara (as a character, May 24)

 

I didn’t know her at all personally, but I saw her influence everywhere I went. It’s clear that not only was she well-loved, but a pillar of the community. And an unending font of love and kindness. Well, a lot of what everyone has said tonight has really resonated with me. I admit I’m not as… gregarious, but I do try to embody the same principles of kindness and sharing and help. I suppose… what I’m saying is, I hope that I can be half the person she was.

Toxyrox (as a character, May 24)

 

I wasn’t going to speak…the dragonflies, though…. We sat one night in the house she shared with Leafi. I wore my Father’s dragonfly and she mentioned it… My Father told me the stories of when the void opened and the Aelotoi came to our world… She wanted to hear the story, so I told her…to the best of my memories… We shared that love of the dragonflies… After I finished my story, she showed me her tattoo…her dragonfly… I wished for one for myself and she teased me with one… She gave me one and now it’s hers.

 

[She then showed off her pallid jade green dragonfly tattoo on her leg.]

Aeith (as a character, May 24)

 

I didn’t know Saraphenia very well, I don’t have the stories that so many others here do. But I know Leafiara, and I know how caring and generous and kind of a heart she possesses. And I know that anyone who can find a place of importance in that heart is someone to be admired. I also know the sorrow that lingers from loss, and how hard that is to carry. But I also know it is a result of life lived and love loved, and I know it can also serve as a reminder in its wake of all those times spent living in the fullest.

 

Grief tears at the heart. But it also proves the heart’s strength. Leafi, I hope in due time this pain of loss lessens, and those warm memories are the thing that remains strongest. In the meantime, please know you are cared about, you are loved, and you have so very many friends about you here at all times.

 

And lastly thank you for gathering everyone here. Looking around is a reminder that each life can shine so bright, and each life can illuminate all those others around them too, even in the afterglow, and how together our community can be as dazzling as the sun.

Domshella (as a character, May 24)

 

I came to the lands a little over a year ago. She took notice of me for some reason, brought me to RYSK, and mentored me in the ways of combat. She once was called the Aelotoi of Death, later becoming the Aelotoi of Love. With her training and instigation, I took over her old moniker. She has been a close friend that I will miss dearly and never forget.

Iskandr (as a character, May 24)

 

I didn’t get to know her, our paths and times of waking up were perhaps different, but seeing the collection of some of the warmest and kindest and greatest people in the lands here to pay respects speaks volumes to the person she was.

Leafiara (as a character, May 24)

 

Phenia was the most emotionally expressive person I’ve known, and the most spontaneous too. I miss her outbursts, but they’re also always going to be with me. She was so animated that she left me a great blessing… Because in times that I know she would have been happy, I know how she would have shown it. I can see her beaming face and her excited eyes. I can hear her giggles and her “Hiiiiiiiiii” in my thoughts. I can hear her just blurting out “Yaaaaay!” That was one of her favorite words. I heard it more from her in any month than from everyone else I’ve ever known. For the entire time I’ve known them. I can feel her leaning against me or snuggling up or giving me a playful bite. I can see her impromptu dances and hear her impromptu songs.

 

As many others mentioned tonight, Phenia called me her Goddess… But I always told her that she inspired me. I honestly don’t know if she ever understood the full impact of that. Or maybe she could never believe it. I really don’t know.

 

Like Eralice mentioned earlier, there are a lot of people out there who can just make you question what you’re even doing here. Unkind, arrogant, self-absorbed, dismissive, you name it. Again, as you heard so many times tonight, Phenia tried to touch the lives of every single person she ran across. So she got burned. Many, many times she got burned. And I consoled her through a lot of those tears. But she persisted anyway. She didn’t let them ruin who she was. Ultimately, she persevered through the hurt with optimism. Always willing to take another chance on the next person.

 

A couple people have said tonight they didn’t really know Phenia, but they do know me. They might think of me as strong, or kind, or generous… And they said so. But Phenia was something far beyond me. She was and she is my hero. She was better at building up our community. Better at inviting people into her world. More generous. Infinitely more generous, of all things. I couldn’t go a few weeks without her giving away a million silvers to someone she’d just met. She was more loving. Had more resilience. More inner strength. More enthusiasm, more dedication to bringing up… everybody. Everybody. She did what she did with so much less abundant time than I have. Phenia was a star who burned radiant and bright.

 

Dendum mentioned earlier… We called her the Aelotoi of Love, but many other “Aelotoi of” nicknames could have fit. The Aelotoi of Joy is one I think of for her.

 

I wanted to end on her own words tonight. That was the plan when I had a speech prepared and I still think it’s the only fitting way to send us off. Occasionally we look back on people’s last words. Phenia’s last words to me were very simple.

 

Love you Goddess!

 

She could have lived another thirty years… And I bet it still would have been the same. Almost every night… Almost every single night, unless she was so tired she needed to pass out… Either “love you Goddess” or “Dragonfly loves her Goddess.” She wouldn’t leave me a day without conveying that. That was to me, but… Really, I think it was to everyone she knew and loved.

 

I wanted to wear my vow renewal clothes because I felt like I’d be renewing a vow tonight. When Phenia and I got married… I told her that I’d be there by her side–and if I couldn’t be physically there, I’d be in her thoughts. And if I couldn’t even be in her thoughts, I’d be with her in spirit. So now I’m going to vow in the other direction. Though she can’t physically be here, nor in my thoughts, she’ll always be with me in spirit.

 

Phenia also told me that she hoped I’d remember her fondly and forever. So I’m going to affirm tonight that I–and we–will absolutely remember her fondly and forever.

 

To Saraphenia! The Aelotoi of Love!

 

We love you, Phenia! Now, until we meet again, and always!

Leafiara’s player (June 1)

 

[Leafi’s player elaborates further, both in-character and out, on Leafi’s celebration of life speech here on the wiki.

Eladarmi’s Songs (May 3)

 

★-Rising Beyond: Saraphenia’s Epic Overture

 

[original, written before her passing]

 

(Verse 1)
In a land where stories weave and wind,
A tale of strength and love we find,
Grand Lady Saraphenia, Autumnwind’s grace,
From bard to monk, a journey to embrace.
Born a slave on Bree’ne’s distant shore,
She rose above, her spirit soared,
Almond eyes like stars, so deep and true,
Olive skin kissed by sun’s golden hue.

 

(Pre-Chorus)
Failed as a bard, yet lessons learned,
Her mentor’s wisdom, once spurned,
But life’s twists and turns, they found their way,
From the shadows to the light of day.

 

(Verse 2)
Waist-length hair like midnight’s stream,
Regal diadem, a monarch’s dream,
Fire opal shards, they blaze and gleam,
A symbol of strength, a warrior’s theme.

 

(Pre-Chorus)
Tiny butterflies, they dance on brow,
Tattoos tell stories of then and now,
Ebon-lined dragonfly, plum and free,
A soaring eagle, a lute’s melody.

 

(Chorus)
Oh, Grand Lady of love’s endless flight,
From humble beginnings to radiant heights,
With wings of silver, and heart so bold,
You shine through stories, your tale unfolds.

 

(Bridge)
Frost Queen’s aura, a councilor’s might,
Wehnmir’s Landing bathed in your light,
Married to Leafiara, goddess so dear,
Love’s boundless essence, always near.

 

(Verse 3)
Monk in battle, fierce and strong,
You fight for right, for justice long,
Mistwood lily charm, leaves of gold,
Your wings of courage, a sight to behold.

 

(Pre-Chorus)
In every mark, in every ink,
In every scar, and every link,
Your spirit’s fire, it blazes bright,
Guiding us through both day and night.

 

(Chorus)
Oh, Grand Lady of love’s endless flight,
From humble beginnings to radiant heights,
With wings of silver, and heart so bold,
You shine through stories, your tale unfolds.

 

(Outro)
So let us honor with voices raised,
The path you’ve trod, the love that blazed,
Grand Lady Saraphenia, your story true,
A testament to love, forever anew.

 

[a part 2 followup written after her passing]

 

(Verse 1)
Amidst the whispers of the wind and trees,
A legend fades, yet memories seize,
Grand Lady Saraphenia, in tales enshrined,
Her legacy endures, her spirit defined.
From humble beginnings, she soared on high,
A beacon of hope beneath the sky,
With every step, she left her mark,
In hearts and minds, through light and dark.

 

(Pre-Chorus)
Though she’s passed beyond mortal sight,
Her essence lingers, a guiding light,
In every leaf that dances on the breeze,
In every story told with reverence and ease.

 

(Verse 2)
Gone is the fire opal’s blazing gleam,
Yet in our hearts, it’s a constant beam,
Her courage, her wisdom, forever alive,
In the echoes of tales, we continue to thrive.
The Frost Queen’s aura, a memory grand,
Her love for Leafiara, across the land,
A warrior’s spirit, fierce and true,
In our memories, Saraphenia, we honor you.

 

(Pre-Chorus)
Each scar, each tattoo, a tale to be told,
A life lived bravely, a legacy of gold,
Through battles fought and victories won,
Your spirit endures, bright as the sun.

 

(Chorus)
Oh, Grand Lady, your wings may rest,
But in our hearts, you’re forever blessed,
With every verse, with every rhyme,
Your legacy echoes through space and time.

 

(Bridge)
We raise our voices, our hearts entwined,
In songs of honor, your legacy defined,
Saraphenia, Grand Lady of love’s endless flight,
Forever remembered, in our hearts alight.

 

(Verse 3)
Though the mistwood lily may fade from view,
Your spirit blooms in all that we do,
In every act of kindness, in every stand for right,
We carry your torch, your guiding light.

 

(Pre-Chorus)
In the tapestry of life, you’ve woven your thread,
A legacy of love, where legends tread,
With each new dawn, we’ll sing your praise,
Grand Lady Saraphenia, in eternal rays.

 

(Chorus)
Oh, Grand Lady, your journey may be done,
But in our hearts, your story’s just begun,
With wings of silver, and heart so bold,
Your spirit lives on, in stories untold.

 

(Outro)
So let us gather, in solemn grace,
To honor your memory, to find solace and embrace,
Grand Lady Saraphenia, in our hearts you’ll stay,
A legend, a hero, forever and a day.

Leafi

Leafi reports on current events in and around Wehnimer’s Landing, where she can often be found dashing about day and night! She also hosts public Town Hall meetings in the Landing and helps with numerous TownCrier projects behind the scenes, including entirely too many proposals that create more work for Luxie. Does this lass’s troublemaking know no end?